Sunday, September 28, 2014

fifty-one

I'm 51!!! 
But I don't feel 
a day older than 15 (0_o)
Ha!
Who am I kidding?
My mind feels 'youngish' 
(My thoughts feel old somehow-- 
Like I've been thinking them for years)
My body... well, 
my knee feels older than the rest of me! 
But the rest of me looks 'youngish'
My heart feels young
I still get excited about my dreams! 
(I still have dreams)
You know, 
like kids have dreams of wanting to be 
someone when they grow up
I want to be 
someone when I get older 
I just don't want to grow old and ancient, 
collecting dust in the corner of some old edifice
I want to be 
someone who is older & wiser 
& nicer 
& healthier 
& calmer 
& happier 
& friendlier 
&...
& someone who still 
dreams 
and hopes
Of helping out
Of making stuff
Of growing things
Of starting a new career maybe?
Ask me in a few years...
maybe in 10 years 
(if I am still here, Lord willing)
about my hopes & dreams 
or if I still have hopes & dreams...

Thank you Lord for giving me 51 years!
Indeed "great is Your faithfulness"!