fifty-one

I'm 51!!! 

But I don't feel 

a day older than 15 (0_o)

Ha!

Who am I kidding?

My mind feels 'youngish' 

(My thoughts feel old somehow-- 

Like I've been thinking them for years)

My body... well, 

my knee feels older than the rest of me! 

But the rest of me looks 'youngish'

My heart feels young

I still get excited about my dreams! 

(I still have dreams)

You know, 

like kids have dreams of wanting to be 

someone when they grow up

I want to be 

someone when I get older 

I just don't want to grow old and ancient, 

collecting dust in the corner of some old edifice

I want to be 

someone who is older & wiser 

& nicer 

& healthier 

& calmer 

& happier 

& friendlier 

&...

& someone who still 

dreams 

and hopes

Of helping out

Of making stuff

Of growing things

Of starting a new career maybe?

Ask me in a few years...

maybe in 10 years 

(if I am still here, Lord willing)

about my hopes & dreams 

or if I still have hopes & dreams...

Thank you Lord for giving me 51 years!

Indeed "great is Your faithfulness"!